ANTI-STRESSANT

ANTI-STRESSANT

The year had been full of events, deadlines, accomplishments. I was working hard teaching English in a private school, as well as tutoring from home. Simultaneously I was working on a diploma in Russian Philology and a Cambridge Proficiency Certificate in English. On top of this, I was leading Christian meetings at a university center and an English Speaking club. It was a full schedule and I loved it.

And then there was my graduate thesis. I had been working on this for the entire year, collecting material, analyzing information, asking teachers for advice, rewriting parts, etc. By the end of February, I thought that the main work was nearly complete, with only details left to finalize. How disappointed I was to be told by my mentor that my “masterpiece” did not hit the mark and that I should redo it from scratch!

Until then I had been managing everything fine, teaching in the mornings and afternoons, and studying in the evenings and weekends, and somehow even meeting up with friends. But now my little world was ruined. I had just two months to redo the paper before submitting it at the beginning of June. In a month and a half, I would take the English exam. My school class would also be sitting year-end exams in May, which in itself meant more work than usual—finishing books, filling in forms, updating student records, etc. I was overwhelmed.

By the beginning of May, I felt worried, stressed, incapable, almost depressed. Then, perhaps unsurprisingly, I got physically sick. I was in bed for a week with bronchitis, high fever, and a very bad cough. In this place of forced rest, I read the Bible, prayed, and simply had talks with Jesus. The biggest lesson was not to worry or stress about things. It doesn’t help. It doesn’t work. It’s not worth it!

Recovering my strength, I rewrote my thesis and successfully defended it. All my students passed their exams, and I finished the school paperwork on time. Unfortunately, I didn’t pass my Cambridge exam. It was a pity, but it wasn’t the end of the world. I will prepare better next year, hopefully without as much stress.

Looking back, I am thankful for the time of sickness that reminded me that I should always take time to communicate with my Boss, to ask for His wisdom, knowledge, and peace of mind. That’s the “antidepressant” and “anti-stressant” I need the most.

9 Comments

  1. Bronwen
    January 13, 2016, 12:16 pm   /  Reply

    Hi. I love the daily devotional but lately you have not been adding a bible verse to the lesson. This is a problem to me as then it could be any teaching. I read the daily devotional to get closer to God and to be grounded. In the teaching of the bible. Please bring back bible verses with the message.

    • Camille Encarnacion
      January 13, 2016, 6:40 pm   /  Reply

      Yes me too i agree with you, why they removed the Bible verse..

      • Sheila Gorman
        January 12, 2018, 7:28 pm   / 

        I was thinking the same thing. Please bring back the Bible verses.

  2. Rashard Holton
    January 14, 2016, 1:56 am   /  Reply

    Its not Jesus Help Without HIS WORD !
    Psalm 127:1 (KJV) Except the LORD build the house, they labour in vain that build it: except the LORD keep the city, the watchman waketh but in vain.

  3. Sewa
    January 14, 2016, 9:07 pm   /  Reply

    Vous etes benis

  4. January 23, 2016, 3:26 am   /  Reply

    How can I get this for my daily devotions

  5. Martha
    January 25, 2016, 10:05 pm   /  Reply

    PLEASE BRING BACK BIBLES VERSE WITH EACH READING I’M NOT COMPLETE WITH OUT THE VERSES than k you

  6. SW
    January 12, 2018, 7:14 pm   /  Reply

    Thank you so much for spreading the gospel of our Lord. Can you pls add back the Bible verses? If there is a reason you changed it pls consider adding back at least 1 or 2 supporting scriptures. Thank you for your consideration. 🙂

  7. Avis
    January 13, 2018, 12:12 am   /  Reply

    Thank you for this passage. As i am sitting here typing i am sick( slowly but surely getting better).God give you what you need when you need it. He is so good that he don’t allow the enemy to take us out. But causes affliction to come to slow us down.. And appreciate him for that. I love you Jesus. Thank you keep writing.

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